I made my co-worker cry today. No that's not very Canadian. Now me feeling i need to publicly apologize. THAT is very Canadian. I'm not entirely sure why she got upset. All i know is what my colleague, crying worker and myslef were meeting to discuss a document i had been working on. She had concerns. I understood why she was concerned, she was concerned that my document somehow conflicts with something similar she had been working on. But it doesn't. It enhances and supports because that is what it was meant to do. She didn't see it that way. She kept trying to point things out and i defended them. I simply didn't understand what it was she couldn't accept, because there was something. Then she started to cry. We looked at her and said, look obviously this is important to you, so explain it to us. She said she had to go and that was it.
I felt for her, i understand she might be going through some of her own stuff right now. I feel bad. and because i feel bad i feel a bit annoyed, because i honestly don't feel i did anything wrong. I should apologize though, right?
I just feel that everyone is confronting me these days. No one talks to me. They just confront. They comment on my work, but not constructively. That's pretty Canadian, bitch for the sake of bitching. Or complain that i don't give enough warning time to let them know my document is almost done. Do i seriously have to micromanage like that? Is that very Canadian?
I like what i'm doing. Its meaningful. I like the actual work too. I like the writing and the researching. I like working with the team. I do. I want to include their comments. Because that's pretty Canadian. But be constructive about it. Don't cry because i don't understand you. don't bitch at me because you didn't remember that i told you two weeks ago that i was working on this, and can be reviewed soon. (by the way, they aren't directly involved, we include team members on all reviews so they can put in their two cents. it includes everyone that way. very pc. its very canadian you know. its how we canadians don't ever get anything done. but we have a report on every one of those consultation meetings. in triplicate.)
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